The only friend i could confide in was facing similiar issues. I just quit my relationship with Babs.. girlfriend, I have given up; Florence said with no regrets. Well, it seems I'm not the only one in this dark phase; I responded. florence has been a good friend right from secondary school. From the little I knew about her previous relationships, she has been lucky. how her recent relationship backed up is what i seem not to comprehend. I have witnessed birthday parties organized secretly by Babs.
I got jealous of how he showers her with love and expensive stuffs. Babs is one responsible guy i know. He is well-cultured and jovial. Florence is hardly around because its either she is on vacation or on tour abroad with her boo. She recently shared her plans of celebrating their fouth year of being together in Dublin. when asked of why they seperated, she explained how Babs was fond of beating her to stupor when he gets angry. I only enjoy Babs when he is in a good mood. we go on trips to make up for our fights. You need to see how bad it turns out when he beats me, you will pity me; she explained.
There I was, imagining a great future and a perfect home with Frank. Before things went worse, we had talked about getting married and having beautiful kids since we werent getting any younger. This was all i have hope for. I had dreamt so many times of how frank would go on his kneels and say those sweets words to propose to me. All were just fantasies. With the way things are going its like my hope has been cut short. Thank God I havent introduced him to my parents, it would have been terrible.
I feel so unhappy with myself. I have wasted my years with a guy I thought was meant for me. Maybe he was, maybe we needed a break or i needed to understand him. But what could be comprehendable in a good guy turned bad?? I wasnt bothered anymore but i watched my phone every moment if he would call. Frank failed me, he broke my heart. this feeling keeps killing me. Now i ask myself, where do i start from, how do i handle my emotional distability.. how do i face the huge mockery i would get from friends. wondering why i should be bothered about what friends say, of course i have to, remember i threw it to their face when i met Frank. *sighs* Indeed, my neighbour is just a lucky babe. maybe she was careful at the beginning. well!!!! maybe the next will be better.
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